Some days...

Some days, I don’t want to get out of bed.

Some days, I want to do nothing but hide under the covers and cry until there are no tears left.

Some days, I feel like I’ve lost myself in the busyness of being a full time parent.

Some days, I feel like a failure, because my milk supply is low again.

Some days, I feel lonely.

Some days, I cry at my stretch marks and

shamefully pull at the extra skin on my stomach.

Some days, I’m so tired I don’t know how I’m going to put one foot in front of the other.

Some days, there isn’t enough Dr. Pepper in the world to give me enough energy.

Some days, their piercing screams are just too much.

Some days, I feel like I let them have too much TV time.

Some days, I feel like they’re never going to have a normal sleep schedule.

Some days, I run out of dry shampoo and realize that I’m finally going to have to take a shower, which takes time, which takes away from precious moments I could be sleeping.

Some days, I worry about their future, and how I’ll be able to protect them.

Some days, I feel like I’m not enough.

Then, there are other days.

Days like today.

Days that are full of bright smiles, the kind that reach their big, round eyes.

Days where they play happily while I’m able to stop and breathe for a minute, or catch up on a chore or two.

Days where we read books upon books and they’re happily engaged, laughing as I start each new page.

Days where play time is just as fun for me as it is for them...watching them learn and grow and try new things.

Days that are full of belly laughs.

Days where I can’t stop kissing their soft little cheeks.

Days where their happy squeals are the only thing I want to hear for the rest of my life.

Days where I just breathe them in, smell their hair, play with their fingers, nuzzle their ears, tickle their bellies and wiggle their toes.

Days that I don’t want to be over, because I’ll miss them while they sleep.

Those are the days that make the “some days” worth it..

and those are the days that make every day perfect.