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Last night, as I washed my hair and enjoyed a few beautiful, rare moments to myself as the babies slept, I had a flashback. I was close to twenty weeks pregnant and trying to soak off a long day of the aches, emotions and anxiety that came with carrying twins. The bath water still covered my stomach, but I kept poking the little bump out of the bubbles, willing it to grow bigger and slightly filled with an unrealistic fear that the lukewarm water was going to boil my children from the inside out.

I had read in my trusty pregnancy app that it was about at this time that babies in utero would start to hear voices outside the womb. It was foreign and strange trying to imagine two tiny humans growing inside of me and as ridiculous as it felt, I sat in that tub gently rubbing my stomach, making promises out loud of a forever that would be filled with love and protection.

Then, I blinked.

In that split second, I had a c section, felt excruciating pain, cried through sleepless nights, swaddled and kissed, changed dozens upon dozens of diapers, basked in the cuteness of oversized bows and first smiles, re-swaddled, gasped as little hands reached up for me and watched in open-mouthed amazement as two little personalities grew stronger. It’s been far from easy, but life has never been more beautiful.

I'm starting this blog to share this roller coaster of a journey so that next time I blink, I’ll be able to go back and remember the little things. I plan on trying to be as raw and real as possible, so that if anyone bored enough is reading or might even be going down a similar path, they can know that they aren’t alone...through the good, bad, sweet and ugly.

Thanks for joining me!